Water is great for your body! It revitalizes your organs and helps good blood flow. :) drink a water.
I hate it so much. It’s a part of myself that I regret every day.
But if I don’t make a point to put myself out there, nobody else will care to reach out and that depresses me really bad. Tears stain my pillow as I type. I am not worth much. I try to tell others every couple of days why I value them so they never wonder…rarely does somebody care to give back.
It’s not fishing for complements either. That’s a load of horse shit. Some people need more conformation than others that living is worth it.
That’s the hardest part is giving and giving and never getting much back. I just feel like the damn Giving Tree book by Shelstein. (I always loved that book)
AT&T CEO Randall Stephenson:
“You lie awake at night worrying about what is that which will disrupt your business model. Apple iMessage is a classic example. If you’re using iMessage, you’re not using one of our messaging services, right? That’s disruptive to our messaging revenue stream.”
Here’s an idea, instead of laying awake at night waiting for someone to disrupt your business, why not try actually innovating? What a losing mindset.
SMS has been a colossal rip-off forever. That carriers knew this. They knew such a scam couldn’t last forever. Yet they did nothing, sealing their fate.
This also proves that Apple was smart not to tell the carriers about iMessage before they launched it. They would have bitched and moaned and tried to kill it before it ever saw the light of day.
Genius.
It’s today! I am quite excited. My dress is long and black, with a corseted top and ruffles to the floor.
Taylor will look super cool in his pinstriped suit. It’s mostly white with bits of black and we will match. :)
I was nominated for prom queen which I didn’t expect. I just asked a couple of people to vote for me. I called my mother to tell her.
I don’t care if I win because I am not popular, being prom queen means little, but the sash is nifty. But all my mother had to say was that there is a chance I won’t win. (no shit, mom)
I was just excited to be nominated because that meant I had really great friends who support me. :)
Once again, I am having to leave my house again. Dad tried arresting me for stuff that doesn’t exist. I can’t do this always moving around and such.
I have prom this weekend.
These remind me of a certain pair of shoes I own. :)
Good ass hummus.
I’m tired of everybody’s expectations. Fuck you all:)
I take a birth control shot.
Every three months I return to the clinic and get another shot in the leg.
Have I mentioned I’m joining the military and this shot deteriorates bone mass extremely fast? People ask me why I take it. It’s pretty simple.
I can not afford a baby. For now, that is failure in my current life, a luxury for later.
In a perfect America, every girl would be abstinent until marriage without the curse of intimate thoughts tugging on their brain. But, I have never been that way.
Everybody expects me to just not do it. It’s easy to not start but once you do, the feeling eats you. The biological clock begins to tick.
I have a need to create a family but a larger need to succeed. I can succeed after reproduction later in life.
